Me and my Mommy...


No time to chat. He had his shots today and has been nothing but fussy. Well actually beyond fussy. Even with the recommended Tylenol. He does get more fun by the day as he learns to smile and talk. He is a joy. He keeps me very busy and sometimes I miss the days when I was footloose and fancy free but then I imagine life without him and I can't. Hope you all are well. I feel so out of touch right now but that will change. I am to much of a social butterfly to be couped up and out of touch.

When a smile makes it worth it all

This is a cry for help...

I always knew that having my own baby would be different then all the childcare I have done. I tried to trick myself into believing that I would be a natural, a pro, it wouldn't be that hard. I have been jokingly referred to as the "Baby Whisperer," people have praised my natural instincts with kids. I have been humbled. My baby doesn't sleep. I don't know if it is because my baby has reflux (we are on our second medication now), I don't know if we have done something that has made him unable to sleep or if it is simply the way he is. I don't know what is normal. I am so emotionally involved, so sleep deprived I can't tell you right from wrong, up from down or well I couldn't tell you much of anything right now. Let's review the last day and someone can tell me "hey it's normal for a six week old" or "It's the reflux." I don't even care if you say it's me. I just need to know what to do, tricks, ideas, suggestions. He went to bed blissfully last night at around 10:30 slept until 1:00 woke up and ate, then he took a half hour to get to sleep slept until 4:00am. All things so far so good. I am thinking yeah! But then he won't go back to sleep. At 5:30 I wake Mike. I can't take it anymore. He takes over I get some sleep at 7:30 I feed him again. We get him to sleep at 8:30 he sleeps until 11:00. Horray! It is now 4:30 and the longest he has slept today since 11:00 has been 20 minutes. What is up with that. Is this normal? Will he outgrow this?

I have great friends your encouragement and words of wisdom mean so much to me and to Mike. Help!

You do what works...but what if nothing works?

So Gavin has reflux. His doctor gave us some medication then asked us to wait two weeks. It has been torture. He screams in pain and only sleeps anywhere from 20 minutes to an hour and a half and then is up for hours. He wants to eat constantly. Feedings take about 25 minutes and up so then within a half hour of finishing he wants to start again. I don't know how much more I can take. I was told at the nursing mothers group I joined to try a sling. The above picture is that very expensive sling. Even at 40% off I am still ashamed to say how much I paid for it, but sleep deprivation and a pure desire to help my child made me do it. I just laid Gavin down and am hoping he will sleep more than an hour. I thought I would sneak off to write this while waiting to make sure he doesn't just sleep 20 minutes. There is nothing more frustrating then falling asleep only to be awoken in 15-20 minutes. Please pray for us we need it!

By the time Christmas came Gavin out grew his Christmas outfit. We managed to squeeze him into it. The Santa hat gave him a rash for a few days but isn't he cute?