33 weeks (Picture in brown shirt) and almost 37 weeks (picture on top)

I can't believe we are doing it again!

It's hard to believe that anytime this month (or if this boy is anything like his brother early next month) we will be having baby. This baby has kicked, hiccuped, wiggled, jabbed his days away inside of me and I of all people should realize how real it is that we are having another baby yet it seems so surreal to me. I look at the few things that symbolize his impending arrival, the swing, the bassinet, the baby clothes, packed diaper bag and it all just doesn't seem right. Inside I go we are going to do this again! Ahhh! Run! Oh wait I can't even do that he comes with me. It shouldn't freak me out but it does. I guess in part due to the difficult infant experience I had with Gavin and the idea that now I have a very busy, very demanding 2 1/2 year old to take care of as well. I know it will be fine. I know I want this but deep down inside I must be honest I am a little freaked. Sleepless night, constant feedings, diapers, did I mention sleepless nights. I guess sleep eludes me now so I shouldn't be concerned.

Things I am looking forward to. Tiny hands, squeaky noises that only come from newborns, someone who can't run away when I want to snuggle, first smiles, not sharing my body, and getting to know a brand new person who I will love with a love I didn't know was possible (until Gavin) and makes getting up each day worth it no matter how tired you are! I think the second time around you know what your in for which in some ways makes it scarier but I know exactly how rewarding it all is and how deep the love flows both ways. I love my boys! All of them even their crazy Daddy!

So ready or not we are on baby watch 2010!

Still the Princess!

Laura